“Despite what you may believe, you can disappoint people and still be good enough. You can make mistakes and still be capable and talented. You can let people down and still be worthwhile and deserving of love. Everyone has disappointed someone they care about. Everyone messes up, lets people down, and makes mistakes. Not because we’re inadequate or fundamentally inept, but because we’re imperfect and fundamentally human. Expecting anything different is setting yourself up for failure.”
Every now and again there are moments that inspire and instill this innate sense of clarity. “Oh, of course. Why didn’t I think of that sooner?” I knew I had been avoiding it for too long, but it didn’t occur to me until I started thinking and recollecting. Then it hit me like a freight train.
Remembering the moments I took for granted and looking to the events in my life now, I can’t help but feel this overwhelming appreciation for all that was and all that is. For all that was, I never got the opportunity to properly express my gratitude.
You’ve been an unbelievably positive influence to my life. You gave me a life – an experience – I don’t think I’ll ever truly forget. You gave me the motivation to better myself. You believed in me and all that I was even when I couldn’t and I don’t think I could ever thank you enough.
Although the time we shared together was short, I’m happy to say those moments will live with me for the rest of my existence.
I believe in you,
The problem is that she haunts me every night when I’m tired and I’m trying to sleep because i remember the time when coming home to text her after a long day made it all better. When the worst days of my life were still good because she was in them. Now all my days look the same and all my nights are empty. The problem is that i think about her at the most random times; when I’m out supposedly having a good time. I think about her and i wonder what I’ll say or how we will look at each other. I wonder if we’ll still be burning with desire or if we’ve grown cold. The problem is that everyone doesn’t understand me, i have to explain and i have to lie. I have to pretend to be the person they think i am, the person i told them i was and the person i no longer recognize. i miss being myself and i miss doing so without having to apologize for it and i miss how she would just know what I’m thinking even when i wouldn’t say a word and sometimes she would tell me everything i wanted to hear even if i didn’t ask for it. I miss how she used to understand me when i failed to understand myself. I miss all the little stuff like her reminding me of my stuff, or taking care of me and making me food. The problem is that i still can’t hate her. I still can’t hear her name and cringe or hear that she’s hurting and not ask about her. I still care about her happiness and about her health. I still hope she can find love, even if it’s with someone else. I still wish her well, even if she hurt me and i still feel bad for hurting them too. I can’t hate her and i never will. I love her too much to hate her.
Havn’t written in a long time will be back soon 🙂
Is it so hard to believe that there are good people on this planet ?
what bothers me is that some people are so content in their belief that good people do not exist that they hurt themselves and hurt them.
Good people do exist.
some people really want to help.
The melody of the unspoken words is much stronger then words itself.
Im not mad.
im just dissapointed.
I am a pissed off human being, and i am going to tell you why. I am pissed off at society killing my dreams, making me believe i can become whoever i want to be, while making me run after minimum wage. I am pissed off at schools Sucking the life, the imagination, the essence and heart out of kids and turning them mindless zombies. I am pissed off from politicians gambling with people as if we are a chess game. When will humans understand that we are not in competition with each other and we are all the same species. We are animals and theirs no denying that, but mastering nature and other species was not enough for us and there we go trying to master each other for reasons that cannot be comprehended. Im sick and tired of being looked at and criticized for not being another mindless individual. WAKE UP!! But im afraid its too late. society have rid us our humanity and we are at the point of no return.
Lets destroy schools and build conservatories.
Lets break the chain of this society and build a loving nurturing environment.
lets destroy all those killing machines and nuclear weapons before they destroy us.
instead of having more corporations interested in taking the money out of your pocket lets build corporations that has the ability to mine space and sustain us as human beings.
Its never too late to build a new tomorrow. A tomorrow better to me, to you, to our kids and to our species as a whole.
gazing into your eyes
drifting into a black hole
time slowing down
each moment becomes a millennium
until time ceases to exist
and well be stuck there in one moment
An experience truly infinte